I have been back on this site tonight reading all the posts; it has been several months since I have visited. Things are very much the same for us: my daughter is still addicted to drugs and we still have custody of our
granddaughter (she will turn 9 years old in just a few days). I have adjusted to this new life as a "parent" and daily life is much easier. I no longer cry every day which is really nice! I have come to accept "what is" and no longer try to change the behavior of my adult daughter. I see her with new eyes, full of compassion but no longer believe the lies she tells or the false hopes she used to feed me. Even though this is not the life I would have chosen for myself (I still dream of retiring!) this is the life I have and we are making it work. I am no longer in that dark place that first overtakes the parent of an addict. Life does go on and while I wish my sweet daughter was with me in this journey, I know that I have the best part of her living right under my roof and I am doing my level best to give her daughter a better life.